I wish i can tell you stuff i hate. Stuff i kept to myself, knowing nobody can help. I tried to be there for everyone in my best condition, even if i can't find one. I want you to know i am strong enough to do this myself, i want people to not see the weak in me, see how shameful, see how useless i am. I want the people, around me to have all the best they can get. I want to know what's best for them, i want them to be strong, i want them to be able to handle it even if it's meant to be falling apart.. like i am.. I am weak, and i do not want people to see that. I can no longer hold those negative action and words that are continuously fed to me.. i partly lost and i don't know who to talk to.. it's hard. And i wish i can end everything sooner..