This is gonna be a quick update. Bahahaha, since i haven't have the time to do it so, i'm gonna rush it before 11:00PM comes.

Anyway, long waited post. HAHAHAH. okay, how i even start.. the fuck..

Before i even graduate from ITE (Institute of Technical Education) teacher select a few of us to visit NYP (Nanyang Polytechnic) due to good gpa. We went and i was really excited and everything. I saw some really cool stuff, teachers there are friendly.. i hope so.. cause the one who guided us around the place was really funny and friendly.. after the touring.. In our whatsapp class chat, our lecturer whatsapp us personally telling us that we are chosen to go for an interview.. so i was really damn happy..

I went for the interview without my laptop, cause my laptop was freaking out of date, its vaio.. it seem pretty cool to me at that time.. and i kinda regret it somehow.. bleh. whatever. Without laptop, only having one thumb drive with me.. *shrugs* oh well.. i used their laptop which was there.. i go through the things which i have confidence on.. but, in oral.. i wasn't that much.. er.. "confident" They didn't tick me off or anything.. but they tell me to always remember how long you're going to produce the work, time track for your work and that will actually help you out if you're working outside and charging it for a price when people ask for your work. That really kinda hit me hard in my face.

After i graduate.. i quickly apply through Special Direct Admission Exercise (SDAE). Portfolio of my work which i'm 100% confident of along with my application and other stuff required.. i put all in a disk. One more ridiculous thing was, about a few weeks have pass by.. i then REMEMBER I FORGOT TO SUBMIT MY DESCRIPTION OF MY WORK.. oh hell no.. so i quickly asked my friend and went back to submit it them.. how careless can i be..

Waited for one month, my friend got his letter, i didn't even received mine and even went to check my letterbox.. i got worry and went online to check my application status.. to my fucking horror.. i got a [ Application Status : Unsuccessful ]. Damnnnnnnnnn. i was so fucking sad.. i went to tell my friend and my lecturer about it.. Like how the fuck.. Why wouldn't i get into that course i want.. I have straight good gpa for the 2 whole years.. my work isn't that bad.. i don't know where it went wrong.. i asked my boyfriend to help me ask about it.. (why not me right.. ? i don't even know where to start.) They told my boyfriend that i failed my oral..

What the flying fuck, right? how can i fail my oral.. when i go such-not-bad-work.. *cough* sorry *cough* Well.. I was damn worry and even ask my friend, my lecturer and even my boyfriend.. i don't even dare to tell my mom about it.. so i kinda kept it to myself until the letter was sent to my house.. oh well, my mom asked me about it.. i went online and search for private school, and apply for Higher Nitec (HN) in ITE again.. i was pretty damn depressed for that one month or weeks... about so.. i was lost to be honest.. alot of things happened from the start of the New Year 2016..

I was okay.. then i was back to zero again.. i won't write in the detail of what happen in between cause its too long, way, too long. lel. MY lecturer help me out, act as a referral, i then sent a fucking sincere letter to NYP, telling them how badly i need this course and so.. they replied me after three working days.. saying "Thank you for your interest.. *blah blah blah* We no longer accept any more students". i showed it to my boyfriend.. then i was trying to keep my cool.. my boyfriend hugged me and i broke into tears.. me and friends were thinking that NYP, probably is blind.. or cause i was malaysian. (LOL) also, they took in 'O'Level students too.. (probably smarter than me, doom for life..) joking.. but really..

Before i even send the letter, thank god one of my friend told me that Temasek Poly (TP) is still on for appeal.. so i took the chance and applied for it. My first choice is still NYP, second choice is TP. so i waited until 7 April 02:00PM for the result.. but the system for the website was having some problem.. what the fuck.. i gave up and waited till night came.. BUT. BUT. BUT.

Suddenly my phone vibrate.. it's an sms from NYP.. saying I GOT CHOSEN for the course.. i couldn't believe what i was looking at, i shouted MOM MOOOOOM while crawling out to the living room... with tears about to come rolling down my ass cheek.. just joking... I WAS SO RELIEVE ABOUT IT.. and happy about it.. "NYP ISN'T BLIND AT ALL" hahahaha. i then quickly go online and accept the course.. ahhhhh, my poor heart.. The next day.. i woke up with another sms saying that I, WITH GOOD GRADE, CAN APPLY FOR SCHOLARSHIP... holy fuck... i applied too.. i don't know is this all about.. i know one minute, i was all out of hope, the next minute, i was full of it..

I hope i keep this in mind.. the things i like, don't come by easy.. i will work even harder when school starts.. Thank you my friend, my lecturer, and my boyfriend who is there for me always.. i thought this is gonna be the dead end road for me.. but nope.. i will keep the faith and HOPE. It's 11:05PM already.. i'm going to school tomorrow to pay some cash and when it's done, i'm officially in the course i love.. also, when you've no confident.. you definitely will lose all hope, so reminder to self.. always be confident no matter what.. hope is always around. (but i'm not that kind of person.... i wish when school starts, i will start to change and change to be a better person..

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